Nick Hall – 1 Know What To Do – So Why Don’t I Do It

Why don’t I do what I know to do?
My age is 54 years. For the past 15 years, I’ve been overweight. I understand what I must do to lose weight. But I never do it. Why? Why can’t I force myself to accomplish what has to be done? I recall how it felt to be skinny and healthy; I truly like that sensation. But I seem to constantly undermine myself. I know that in order to wake up and workout in the morning, I need to obtain adequate sleep. I’ll go to bed early but then stay up until one or two a.m. reading. Then I won’t be able to get up and workout before work. In fact, I’m frequently late for work because I stayed up too late. Then, because I didn’t get at work early enough, I won’t be able to leave in time to go for a stroll in the park near work before it gets dark. So I tell myself that I’ll stop at the gym or hop on the treadmill when I get home, but I don’t. I have the same problem with food; I know what I should and shouldn’t eat, yet I still end myself eating crap or eating too much of it. I’ll have a nutritious supper followed by a large second meal. And I purchase sweets at the grocery store even though I know I’ll eat it if I have it in the home. The same is true for my work – I know what I need to do to get my work done, but I avoid doing it, so I’m constantly stressed out about getting things done at the last minute and frequently not doing as well as I could if I had just worked on it sooner. I also know what I need to do to better myself and develop professionally, but I put it off. I don’t understand why I seem to spend my entire life avoiding doing the things I both want and need to accomplish! It’s not a question of time; I have plenty of time to do all of these tasks. I am married, but I do not have children to care for; I travel frequently for work, so I have lots of time on aircraft to read and work; but, I do not utilize that time for work; instead, I either sleep or “waste” it by playing games or shopping online. I have no domestic tasks to complete this week because I am gone from home all week. So I have no excuse for not working out, eating correctly, getting enough sleep, or completing my tasks. I’m not sure why I do this! Why can’t I force myself to do what I want and need to accomplish? I’m not a complete moron; I get things done; it’s just that I dread starting them. I’m a slacker. When I do get started, I frequently work long hours, compulsively, until I’m finished.